Dina is 1 month today

1 month.

i don't think i can do this... taking care of an infant. this is it for me. the stress is too much, i worry about everything. i feel bad having to choose which crying kid i have to attend to first.

anyways, dina is currently experiencing a bad diaper episode. started as a diaper rash, progressed to red bumps n then broke. her skin is raw. at one point she cried so much she lost her voice. vicious cycle. she leaks poop... i change her, she cries n squeeze n poop a little more. i change her... she cries... squirt a little poop... i change her...

and why does desitin or butt paste is sticking to everywhere else but the area i want it to stick to. now, she's on a perscription cream for burn victim. seems to work (please work!!) but today just noticed another area getting red.

at times i feel i can't do it, i can't handle seeing her butt like that. but what choice do i have...

that's it... at 1 month... i am stressing over dina's butt.

May 2009... continue

May 2009

Welcome to the world Dina

Here she is, my second child : )... i'm still adjusting to the fact that i have 2 children n same with chot. we did have 9 months to prepare ourselves but the actual "kemunculan" of dina will take a few days to digest (just like it took us couple of days to digest news of being pregnant for the 2nd time : D ). PLUS, she was delivered fast... n i mean fast!!!...

so aside from the prelabor signs, serious contractions started around 1 am. by 4 am i took a shower n got ready for the hospital. maybe i waited too long coz by that time, contractions was like really2 close, i would even say less than 5 min apart (but i might be wrong considering my impared judgement) called them to let them know i was on my way n that was a miss communication. i said contractions stared at 1, they heard contractions just started 1 hour ago. so... they instructed i take some tylenol (that's like panadol) lie down n wait another hour.

15 min into lying down i was screaming with pain n crying. no way were we waiting... off we went to the hospital. luckily, it was 5 min away : )... if i waited and /or the drive was longer... probably delivered in the van!!!

was already 8cm n with each contractions i was getting closer (or rather further) from an epidural. or probably, epidural was already out of the question. so when they told me so, I FREAK OUT!!!... pain was unbelievable. remembered telling myself "wait!!! wait!!! i can't do this" until i got some sense n actually did what the nurse n doctor was telling me.

i kid u not, i actually felt a small portion of the water sack came out n pop... i swear i could hear the pop, like the pop of a balloon (i'm sure i was the only one hahaha)... with 3 or 4 push, dina was out. i cannot describe the relieve of not having any more horrid contractions. actually felt like a hero, which was short lived when doc started to stitch me up.

nura seemed happy enough saying "baby" non stop. kiss baby, hug baby, baby sleep, baby outside (i guess she wants to take baby home), baby sleep... shhhhh : ) hahaha, very cute.

(darn it... apasal ler hilang paragraph spacing...)